Monday, May 26, 2008

tomorrow 8am i have english oral, and now i am still on msn talking to people. nowadays alot of things happen, alot alot of things. let's start with friday's prayer meeting. red rain prayer meeting is just too powerful, first time saw red rain on the stage, i love their songs. and everyone just keep on praying, praying and praying. the presence of God is there with us, i love it. i am addicted to it, i cannot live without it. after the prayer meeting we went to eat kfc, break fast! arrghhh! finally! i eat like i never eat meat before, haha! i love meat! :) then after that went home with CG, and something bad really happen. that just irritated me so much that i totally forgot about the fun i had during red rain prayer meeting. i was annoyed, really. then went home, called weile and jianming, discuss with them about what to do, talk to other people on the phone until 4am, and went to sleep. next day is saturday, which is red rain concert! and i am doing usher on this day, felt very sad that i was not able to go for SL meeting because it is too early, then i report for usher duty at 10am. keegan inform me that i am his runner! which means chief usher assistance! so cool! this is the first time for me to do runner, so i follow wherever keegan go, and look at how he lead the ushers, learnt alot of things from him. i learnt how to be always fast, sharp and alert at all times, and always stay calm whenever some problems happen, after the whole day, i tell myself. during my next usher duty, i am going to be different. and you know what, remember that the top red rain fan will get a acoustic guitar sign by red rain? guess who won it? ME! i won the guitar! so shock... keegan still ask me to do things when dominic start to talk about red rain fan club! when he said, 'xinchi, clementi town sec' my face is shock! totally blown away! my dream had come true. i really want to thank God for blessing me with the guitar, i had been praying for it for very long. and thanks dominic and ivan for giving me this chance! :) after that went to suntect and hang out with my CG, i was so happy, that i even forget about all the bad things happening. so get back home with john, and start to plan about sunday's red rain concert! still the same, sleep at 4am, super tired in the morning, then went to syl house to dye hair, but didn't work out! after that faster went to clementi mrt station to take our very own bus to church! abit of problems happened, but overall is good. thanks new town sec! then buy our food, introduce new friends to other people, and get into auditorum, found a good seat and settle everyone down. and we enjoyed ourselve during the concert. red rain is amazing, they are just too cool! all the songs they sing, just goes into people's heart, i believe that many people felt in the same way as me. the whole concert is just too high, everyone is jumping, until the whole floor is shaking! too high! and i just jumping and jumping, screaming and screaming. totally forget about everything and just involve into their music. red rain, symphony, seize the day, summer. all theirs songs are nice. one of the climax is summer! when the ushers throw out the balloons and everyone is jumping to hit them. and this is one part of the song, red rain keep quiet, everyone thought that the song had ended, then suddenly they sing very fast, and everyone just goes high until no one can imagine. and during the last part. red rain! 1 of my favourite song, everyone is just shouting and screaming. the whole concert is just COOL! at the end of the concert, i get a CD, my RR badge and a red t-shirt to let them sign. haha :D so cool! after the concert we went to marina square. and i chat with peiwei for quite long, get to know her heart, told her about my story. after that went home, bathe and lay on my bed. thought of all the things we did. the heavy bottles that we have to carry everyday, the time we spent to paste the card, the brain cells we use to discuss about it, the panda eyes on our faces, the countless sms and calls... it all worth it, just one soul, it is good enough. and there are not just one soul, there are many good fruits! i really must thank God for everything. red rain is over now, and the real work start now! went to HQ meeting on monday, learnt alot from charleston and dominic, discuss about all the new friends, and reach home at 11pm+. and i was high, because God solve everything! chat with lala on msn just like the past! and everything is ok now! everything! i am just too excited, and we gather some people and started TEAM CTSS HAPPY HOURS! everyone just simply went high! we are laughing to our screen, and i nearly bang my head! too high le. we just simply held a party on msn until 3am+! high ah! all of us is like jumping in the air! cool huh! everything is too cool. God, we are ready to bring ctss into a greater height. the next few days are going to be great. secondary school camp! i will be a team leader for the camp! haha :) it will be super fun and exciting. red rain concert is not just to let the new friends experience God, it is also for the regulars and new leaders to rise up and grow our church. faith, is very important. and prayer also. i pray, i visualize, i believe and i see all of the things happening. pray pray and pray! visualize visualize and visualize! believe believe and believe!

a simple song writen by me:
the eye bags on our faces
the pain on our legs
the stress in our head
sometimes smile might fades
things may go astray
there is still a long way
God, i am here for thanksgiving
for all your healings
for all your blessings
God i am here for thanksgiving
for all your helpings
for everything

3:00 AM

Saturday, May 24, 2008

today went for a very inspiring and powerful discipleship class, i really learnt alot from ivan, what he said really goes into my heart. prayer is important, very important. our God is big, big until we cannot imagine, words like "amazing", "big" is not enough to describe God. PRAY! pray in english & pray in tongues & sing in tongues, we must pray to overcome our flesh and totally focus in addicted into God's presence. prayer is the strongest weapon we have. and second thing is about being pregnant in the spirit! we have to imagine and visualize, as a leader of 5, a leader of 10. we must think like a leader, do things like leaders, talk like a leader, see things like a leader and most importantly, function like a leader!! JUST DO IT! we must see ourselve as a leader and act as a leader! even though i am not a leader for now, but i think i can be a leader of myself! plan for my own life, work on my spirit, and think as a leader! leadership is not about skill, it is about your heart, only when u do things like a leader, then you will be a leader. start imagine yourself as a leader of 5!! yeah! basically, today's discipleship class is just awesome, i learnt alot. today's prayer meeting is cool too! saw red rain singing on the stage for the first time, they are cool! their songs are really nice, i love red rain! ok, let me share about some other thoughts in my mind right now. i am just feeling annoyed, irritated. when things start to getting better, devil always try to destroy it. i really need to pray stronger, prayer is our strongest weapon. we really need to stand strong in God, and have faith in Him. He is there, He is always there. when you pray with faith, God will move. so just pray! pray! and pray! i am getting very tired now, tomorrow must reach church at 9am for usher. i need to pray first before i go and sleep. i just pray that everything will be alright tomorrow. good night friends!


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COUNTDOWN: 0 MORE DAYS!

1:00 AM

Thursday, May 22, 2008

going to sleep soon, but i just felt like sharing my thoughts here. after yesterday's leaders meeting and today's CG prayer meeting, i learnt alot. i learnt that we must really have faith and believe in God. and when we want a prayer to be answer, i have this concept. visualize - believe - see! we must first visualize ourselve solving our problem or making our dream come true, then believe in God that it will happen one day, then you will see it happen. visualize! during today's prayer meeting, i visualize myself being a leader of 10 and leading clementi town sec into a higher level, and serving as a section leader in usher ministry, and i believe all of these will happen one day. when we are having any problems, just pray, visualize - believe - see! God is awesome, and He will answer our prayer! :) red rain concert is coming very soon, i am very excited about it, today saw red rain in church! they are cool! i really love them! friends, if you are interested for red rain, don't hestitate! come and look for me to get the tickets! red rain is really cool! woohoo! :D haha, for team ctss, let's believe for 45people. nothing much to say now, good night everybody! :)


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COUNTDOWN: 1 MORE DAY!

11:46 PM

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

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6:47 PM

Monday, May 19, 2008

today went to SOW audition, i think i will not be able to pass, but i need to have faith in myself! yeah. i think it is abit random to talk about this, but just feel like sharing my feelings here. just now i was just thinking about church stuff, and i tell myself. for the rest of my life, i will serve my leaders like jian ming, ivan, charleston and my pastors, Pastor How and Pastor Lia. i know it is very random to suddenly think about this, but i just have that feeling. i will serve all these people forever, they are just so amazing. i really respect them alot. i know its abit BHB to say this, but my aim is charleston! haha, i want to be like charleston, i want to be charleston number 2. :) i don't know why, i just like charleston alot. haha, even i am quite far from him, but whenever i see him, i just feel like talking to him! hahaha! :D CHARLESTON! haha. i want to do more things in church, so that i am able to serve my leaders and pastors, and of course, God! yeah, i need to have a servant's heart! :) anyway, i am proud of kelvin!


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8:35 PM

Sunday, May 18, 2008

these two days was busying with church stuff, and i learnt alot of things through pastor's sermon and usher duty. pastor talk about clementi town secondary school! yeah! so cool! :) yesterday receive a present from pastor, i was shock! haha, it is a CD with chinese worship songs, pastor get it from taiwan! haha. i love it, thank you pastor! today, pastor preach about faith and confidence. in Hebrews 11:6 we know that, when we have faith, we please God. faith is something a christian must have, and faith = confidence. so christian must be confident people!, and we must be confident people! faith is something to live by, live with and live on! we must have faith in whatever things we are doing, and we must believe in God. God is always helping us, when we have faith, God will move! faith and confidence is like the base of everything. and abilities and talents are build from faith and confidence. then anoiting and power is build by abilities and talents! so we must have faith and confidence! for me, faith is the most important thing. christian live by faith, we must have faith that God is existing and He is there to help us! whenever we have problems, we should turn to God! and have faith in Him! and we cannot just have faith in God, we must also have faith in ourselve! and that is also known as - confidence! we must be confident in whatever we are doing! faith faith faith and confidence confidence confidence! after service, we give our very own hoGc bible to lala, and together with what we want to tell her, hope she will like it? today cut a new hairstyle, haha, super straight! tomorrow is my guitar SOW audition, i don't know anything about guitar! die die... hope somehow God will help me with it! haha! :) that's all for today!


PS: COME TO RED RAIN CONCERT 2008!
COUNTDOWN: 5 MORE DAYS!

11:46 PM

Saturday, May 17, 2008

it had been quite a long time since my last post, nowadays busying with the 400red rain bottles. 400bottles is not easy, but God is really helping me with it! God is just amazing. i am so glad that everything is running smoothly, even some problem is still there, and it seem to be getting bigger and bigger, but i am still very happy about what we have done, i just pray that everything will continue to be fine, and many people will come for red rain concert and feel Your presence, Lord. i just pray that Your wisdom, Your strength, Your annoiting and Your presence will be always with us, Lord. through these few days of interaction, team ctss's bonding had become stronger, now we can work together and bring a revival into clementi town sec school, i really thank God for all these people who had help me like peiwei, lala, jeanie, jia xian, alicia, ock, kaiting and samantha! thank you! :) and there are many other people who had help me alot too, such as peiwei's parents and miss janet tan. peiwei's parents is awesome, they help us carry 320bottles of water back home, cook dinner for us, help us print the cards out, give us ideas and many many things, thanks! and miss tan, thanks for supporting me with this thing, thanks for always showing concern to us and help us to pay our taxi fare to bring the bottles to school, thanks alot! God is really answering my prayer, He is there, He is always here with me. thursday's CG, we had a great worship session, it was really awesome and amazing. we sing a new song call ' Lord you are always here with me.' it is really nice, i just cannot stop crying, the presence of God is so strong that my whole body is shaking. here is the song.

Lord, You are always here with me

When the trouble comes I trust in You
For i know You will lead me through
And i know You are faithful
till the end

Lord You are always here with me
There is no changing God in Thee
You are the same yesterday
and today and forevermore

Here on your promises i stand
You hold my future in Your hand
My solid rock
Almighty God
I worship you

And when the storms are drawing near
When i'm with You i dont have to fear
You're my shepherd on whom i can depend

Through the day
Through the night
I know You're always be by my side

this song is very nice, really. yes, Lord. You had been always here with me. thank you Lord for all the things You have done in my life, Lord. grow and learn, these are the two things that i want to focus on this period of time. USHER! i want to grow in usher ministry. i want to learn from jian ming, keegan, noni, hong kai and all the chief ushers and section leaders! this period of time is for me to learn and learn. everything seem to be ok right now, i just hope that nothing will went wrong for the red rain concert 2008. the problem! arrghh~ still there, getting bigger and bigger, and i seem to be not able to solve it, arrghh~ God! help me please!


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12:02 AM

Sunday, May 11, 2008

today i am very happy, don't know why. hahahaha! :) wake up at 11, bathe and prepared for usher duty later. reach church at 1.30 and attend leaders meeting, it's cool! haha, then went down to audi to set up the chairs and put the harvest time and red rain tickets on every chair. today's ushers are so cool, don't know, just feel so happy to be in usher ministry, i love it. hahahahah! :D everything is done much faster than last time. and i really learn alot through today's duty, usher usher usher, i want to grow in usher ministry! yeah, get my usher tag and red rain badge! they are cool! really! COOL! the red rain badge is really very big, haha. i put it on my black shirt immediatly after i get it frm Bon, so cool. and jian ming said that i am really very high about red rian. haha. I LOVE RED RAIN! today i am just very high, not because i get my usher tag, not because i get my red rain badge, not because i borrow guitar from serena, but i am just high! woohoo! things are getting better and better, yeah! :) ok, got to go and bathe now, later have to re-do my red rain plan! see ya! =)

my cool usher tag! :)

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COUNT DOWN: 12 MORE DAYS!

12:38 AM

Saturday, May 10, 2008

today went for basketball and soccer outing with some people, it was very fun. haha. finally, i played basketball, but still haven't get back the feeling, i will train during holiday, if not no face to go 369. after playing basketball, went to church to do BM! and we are cleaning the toilet, so fun, haha! weile, peiwei and me is in one team, and we are very slow, because we are chatting, haha! but it was fun, really. after BM, we went to foodcourt to eat, then take MRT to go home. today is a really long long day for me, and these few days i will be quite busy with stuff. tomorrow i doing usher, sunday service, monday going ivan house after school, haha. then next week i will chiong for red rain, friends, please come. haha! :) abit tired about all the things happening, but i have God! God, God, God! He is the only one that i can rely on. :) so i don't want to think anymore, just do what i want to do. i felt something wrong is happening in my house, really, something is wrong, i pray that everything is going to be fine. haha! yeah, that's all. see ya! :)


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COUNTDOWN: 13 MORE DAYS!

12:16 AM

Thursday, May 8, 2008

finally, 08 May, 11.45am, i finish my last paper for MYE. finally can relax abit, but red rain concert have alot of things waiting for me. today, after my physics paper, went to bugis with OCK to buy a new bag and a new shirt. then went to church to slack until my worship session start, miss my CG! i am only happy when i am with my CG. haha! =) this few days will be quite busy for me, tomorrow going for a CG outing at clementi, then at night need to go back church for BM. saturday doing usher, sunday going sunday service, monday going ivan house to play. haha! today stay at church until quite late, was chatting with noni and fedora. and i had a new vision for this year, a Section Leader. you might think that is impossible, but noni say, nothing is impossible. so i change my vision, from becoming a SL by next year, to become a SL in this year! that is COOL! yeah, usher usher usher. ok, enough with this topic. the problem is still there, haven't solve yet, but i will try... lift it to God, and let God settle it, when i am praying, God is listening. just hope that everything will be alright soon. next week daniel fast! for the problem i am having now, and for red rain revival! daniel fast, do not know whether i will still alive after that anot. but i will try! if u want to have something which you never had before, u have to do something you have never done before, that is, daniel fast! ok, i will do it. just want to end this post with a prayer.

Dear Father, i come before You today. thank You for all the things that You had done for me, thank You for always placing joy in my heart, Lord. Dear Father, right now i just want to lift the biggest problem i am having now into Your hand, help me, Lord. the problem really make me very headache, Lord, help me, help me. Dear Father, i also want to pray for your protections to be upon all my CG mates, jian ming, wei ling, wei le, wen qi, xiao yu, zi ang, eric, ian, lala, peiwei, ock, jia xian, serena, chloe, xiang ling, tiffany, darren, chen fei, john. i pray that nothing bad will happen to them, Lord. Dear Father, i also pray that my relationship with my friends will be better, especially Team CTSS, peiwei, lala, ock, jia xian, alicia and many more. thank You, Lord, i pray all these in the name of Jesus, Amen.


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COUNTDOWN: 15 MORE DAYS!

11:20 PM

quiz again, sabo-ed by many people again. it's ok, since i am in a good mood after exam!

1. what do you enjoy most?
the presence of God
2.who's more important to you?
God
3.who is the person you trust the most?
God
4.Do you have enough confidence?
not really
5.if you have a dream come true, what would it be?
rise up to be a leader and have a better relationship with my friends
6.do you believe in seeing rainbows after the rain?
yes
7.What is your goal this year?
PTL
8.Do you believe in eternal love?
yes, God love us forever
9.Have you broke someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
no, i am pure, and no girls will like me.
10.what feeling do you love the most?
happy
11.what are you doing this quiz for?
kena sabo-ed
12.what feeling do you hate the most?
misunderstanding
13.Do you cherish all the friendship of yours?
yes
14.Do you believe in GOD
read my blog and you will know
15.What do you think is the most important in your life?
God, Heart Of God Church
16.Who do you hope to be always there for you?
God
17.Whose your best friend?
zi ang, jian ming, lala, peiwei, john and many many more?
18.what have you done to please yourself?
worship God
19.what would you like to do now?
SLEEP
20.Do you derserve love?
no
Instructions: remove on question from above and add in your personal question.tag 8 ppl:
8 ppl

11:06 PM

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

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9:09 PM

today is a maths paper, 34marks gone for sure, don't know how to do, really very hard. i think i won't be able to do well in Mid-Year, God, help me! tomorrow is my last paper, physics. don't understand anything, arrghh~!! ok, stop thinking about it, anyway, after tomorrow, i am free! tomorrow is very simple, 9.40 reach school, 11.45 can go off. going to meet serena to borrow her guitar, then go church to learn some advance photoshop tactic from eric, i only know the basic. and 5pm! worship session! wow, i miss my CG. after exam, everything will be back to normal, i need to work hard for red rain. yesterday after my quiet time, a lot of crazy ideas about team ctss and red rain concert just come into my mind, they are really crazy ideas! when a crazy person say something is crazy, it's really crazy, need to redo my plan again. red rain is cool! must come! i have alot of work to do about it! arrghh~ have to do it on my own, but it's ok, God will help me. this week chat with a lot of people, wei le, wei ling, serena, zi ang, jian ming and ivan. yesterday very funny, chat with zi ang on msn, very crap.

X: my favourite song for the season is superman. suit my feeling.

Z: mine is 情非得以.

X: ? fall in love with someone?

Z: ya

X: don't tell me is Jesus, i know what you are thinking. haha

Z: you think 破梗 very fun is it? LOL

X: we should think of some new 梗.

Z: you got any new one?

X: yeah...

then i tell him some new cold jokes i have. 10minutes later, after my 7th joke.

Z: xinchi, you know what?

X: ? what?

Z: lucky i am a Christian now, and i am your leader.

X: if not you will whack me? LOL

Z: i will make sure you can't remember your surname. LOL


yeah, we are very lame, haha! nowadays thought of some old memories, very funny, those stupid things i did with zi ang. run around causeway point to escape from a gay who was trying to follow us home, those nights we spend together to train basketball, those problems our baskbetball team had, those stupid jokes, those songs we like to sing, those comics we like to read, those girls we like, those pai kia stuff which ZI ANG did and many things, maybe will blog about it next time, we did too many things. LOL! red rain is coming real soon, and that remind me of my favourite rock band, MAYDAY五月天!

yeah, use to love them alot. i love rock band, love their attitude towards music, love their heart towards music, love their passion towards music, love their power towards music. rock band is cool! they express themselve through the wonderful music they made, they love life, love people, love music. MAYDAY is really cool, must listen to their songs! you can borrow their CDs from me. rock band is COOL! ok, change topic now. it's time for me to stand up and run, there are still many things for me to learn before i can rise up to be a leader. for me, i think a leader need four things. heart, character and attitude, a strong inner man and skill. and i am weak in all these things! must keep growing! i have many things that i want to do during this june holiday, i want to do more things for B1 and church and bring team ctss into a higher level. and there are others things that i want to do also, learn guitar, learn popping from o school, it's on friday, so won't clash with my church service. but i must focus on red rain now! there are many others things that i want to do, but my dream is to build dream! so must put my dream in my heart first. ok, eventhough there are still many things i want to share in my blog, but it's time for me to rest for awhile, i am hungry! haha, good luck for your last paper tomorrow. =)

PS: COME TO RED RAIN CONCERT 2008!

3:29 PM

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird
I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

I Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd
But don’t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed

I may be disturbed
But won’t you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream

It’s not easy to be me
Up, up and away
Away from me

It’s all right
You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy
or anything

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

It’s not easy to be me...

4:20 PM

today's exams are just.. arrghh! e math paper2, a few questions don't know how to do, again, 13marks gone. and chemistry is like... i don't know what to say, i only spend half of the time given to finish everything, you know why? i don't know how to do, so just anyhow write. fail for sure, sectionB and C, 70marks, guess what? i only know how to do a few questions, and that can only give me 12marks if i never make any mistake. arrghh! forget it, chemistry is not for me. still the samething, after school, went home alone. read my favourite book, it is really a very nice book, i already finish half of it, i will blog about it next time, because i have too many things to share about the book. the problems doesn't seem to getting better, but i will still keep praying for that. tomorrow is wednesday! fasting! i am fasting on every wednesday, to build my inner man. and tomorrow i will be fasting for the problem also, hope that everything can be back to normal? i know it's hard, but still the samething. PRAY! eventhough the problem seem to be getting bigger and bigger, but God is with me, everything will gonna be alright! that's all what i want to say now, maybe will blog again later. see ya!!!


PS: COME TO RED RAIN CONCERT 2008!

3:00 PM

Monday, May 5, 2008

if you read the quiz that i did, you will know that one thing i fear is chemistry... and guess what, tomorrow is my chemistry exam! arrghhh! and i don't get anything, flunk for sure. but i tell myself, i must pass. i just cannot understand a single thing from MOLE! what is that? i just read read and read, and i just understand abit about it. ok, enough of chemistry, it's time for me to relax, drink something, then pray and sleep. just now felt better after sharing all my problems with serena, sometimes, people are just hard to understand what they are thinking, 人心隔肚皮. and i really don't know what to do about the biggest problem in my life now, but ivan told me this, what is the diferent between a secular leader and a christian leader. one might come to a place where he don't know what to do. but one always know one way to solve everything, PRAY! pray pray and pray, that is the only way and the shortest way that i have to solve the stupid problem. devil, get lost! i must keep having faith in God and in me. PRAY! that is the only thing i can do now, even i feel really upset about it, really angry about it, really don't know what to do about it, but it is normal for human to feel it in this way, but it is all about what we are going to do next. i hope that the misunderstanding between me and some people can be solved, i hope that i can have a better relationship with people around me, especially team ctss. ok, that's all for today, i want to relax abit then go and sleep. good luck for your exams!


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11:33 PM

i don't really know what to say about today, abit down. will flunk my e maths paper1 and social studies for sure, not because i didn't study, just that i don't have time to finish all the questions. tomorrow is my e maths paper2 and chemistry, i just simply hate chemistry, for no reasons. ok! enough of exams, that make everyone feel like punching their teachers. today abit down, not just because of the exams, also must to keep my mouth shut at all times, so that i won't say or do anything wrong to make others misunderstood me again. one case is enough. sometimes, dreams may just seem to be too far, too far. sometimes, vision may just seem to be so blur, so blur. sometimes, emotions may just seem to be out of control, out of control. (sound like literature) but i already decided, so dump all these things into the rubbish bin. because, i want to live a life of OTHERS! i was reading the book written by Pastor Joakim. For A New Generation - Reaching The Schools For Jesus. i just finish the first few chapters, but it is so inspiring. at this point of time, i want to ask all the christians a question, WHERE IS JESUS GOING? "Follow me." just two simple words, many people throw away their dreams and follow Him. Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever, so Jesus is saying the samething to His disciples yesterday, today and forever. so now He is telling his disciples today, "follow me". to you and me. we often reply "yes, i will follow. to where You are going", and it's the correct answer, but do you know, WHERE IS JESUS GOING? you maybe thinking, who will ask this kind of question? haha, but tell me frankly, when you want to follow someone to go somewhere, will you want to know where he or she is going? Where is Jesus going? where does Jesus want me to follow Him to? the answer is that Jesus is going where He is always going. to the lost. to those that need Him the most. to all of those whom He has died for, but who may never had an honest chance to hear about Him, and if they want to say their own yes to Him. to follow Jesus doesn't just mean going to church on Sundays. not just going to CG meeting. but also to your friends, to your class, and to move on from there into everything that will become your world in the future. i am impacted, totally. to follow Jesus, we can't just go to church, we must impact other people's life! maybe some of you may think that, what is xinchi talking about, but nevermind, i just want to share this in my blog.

despite the fact that you are young. despite the fact that you are not perfect. despite the fact that you might not think you dare to do it right here and now.
"The Lord is with you, mighty warrior. Go in the strength you have - I will be always with you."


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3:00 PM

Sunday, May 4, 2008

today went to jian ming's house and study, but didn't really study alot. we just play around, and i was the one who did all that. haha. today was super fun, we had fun reading someone's blog. and i won't tell you whose blog is that. nowadays just don't feel like blogging, because nobody is reading, type for myself to see? haha. that stupid thing just can't get over my mind, everytime i thought of it, i will feel like punching the wall. but whenever i am with my CG, all the problems are gone, and i really love to be with them! i need to pray more to God and ask Him to help me with it. borrow a book from jian ming called "FOR A NEW GENERATION. REACHING THE SCHOOLS FOR JESUS" it was written by one of my favourite pastor, Pastor Joakim! i just simply love him, i love his sermon on being a school changer, if i didn't listen to his sermon, i won't even thought of bringing my school for a revival, he is just a amazing man of God. that's all i want to say today, going to study for exams tomorrow, i hate social study....


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9:43 PM

later i will be going jian ming house to study, and attend leaders meeting. i am very excited that i am able to attend a leaders meeting, yeah! yesterday, chat with wei ling and jian ming on the phone until 4am... and found out something which make me feel very.. annoyed? irritated? i don't know, just hate the feeling of being misunderstood by others. i hate it, just simply hate it. okay, that's all what i want to say.


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10:51 AM

i had saw 5people did this quiz, and for all of them, i saw my name in the last question, ok... here you go!

One person you confide everthing in:
jian ming
zi ang
lala
(i wrote 3. LOL!)

Two closest family members:
father
mother

Three favourite places:
heart of God church
369
my room

Four things you fear:
no friends
no food
not enough sleep
chemistry

Five best friends:
zi ang
jian ming
lala
peiwei
john

Six good/bad habits:
always late
always sleeping
eat alot
can't stop saying lame jokes
like to be alone
can't control my money

If someone asks you how are you and you are not fine,you reply:
nothing

If someone asks you how you are and you are fine, you reply:
siao

If you one of your fears up there what do you normally do:
pray to God

What do you do in your favourite places:
worship God in church
play basketball in 369
sleep and play computer in my room

If one of the thing you fear the happens which one would you rather it be:
chemistry

choose 7 people to do this quiz:
anyone who want to do this quiz.

12:20 AM

Saturday, May 3, 2008

today is pledge day, the service is just powerful, so powerful. pastor preach a inspiring sermon, it's about building dream. there are five stages when you are having a dream.
1. Birth of a dream
2. Delay of a dream
3. Death of a dream
4. Resurrection of a dream
5. Fufillment of a dream
it is very true, pastor also talk about when you have a dream in you, people will start to attack you dream and devil will attack you too. i have a dream, i have many dreams. but i just want to give them up, and concentrate on God's business. i want to be a dreamer! and live a life of big dreams! i remember what ivan told me very long ago. we must dare to dream, dream is free so dream big! dream and vision is very important for people. we must have a vision and run towards it. today pastor share a very powerful thing. make the dreams of others come true and God will make your dream come true. it just impacted me. i had been always chasing after my dreams, work very hard for it. but now, i decide to make other people's dream come true, and one day, God will answer me. i just love today's worship song. i simply live for you.

Say the word and I will sing for You
Over oceans deep I will follow
If each star was a song
And every breath of wind praise
It would still fail by far to say
All my heart contains
I simply live
I simply live for You

As the glory of Your presence
Now fills this place
In worship we will meet You face to face
There is nothing in this world
To which You can be compared
Glory on glory
praise upon praise
You bind the broken hearted
And save all my tears
By Your word You set the captives free
There is nothing in this world
That You cannot do
I simply live
I simply live for You

the lyrics is just so powerful. and one more song, but i forget the name of it. the lyrics is like this. one word, You know i will follow. one heart, broken to You. use me again, Your mercies follow me, for all my days. i really like the part, "one word, you know i will follow." yes, Lord! i will follow You forever! speak to me, i will do everything for You. today's sermon also teach me another thing, i am just thinking too much, i just need to concentrate and serve God! that's all! all other things is not important, because God is everything. sometimes. we might just do everything on our own, and depend on our own, and rely on our own. but we must remember this, God is always with us. just keep praying! and God will answer you. for lala and peiwei, there might be alot of things happening in your life, there might be alot of problems in your life. but it is satan who is trying to destory your life! we must stand stong and believe in God. don't depend on yourself, lift your problems to God and believe in Him! just keep praying, pray and pray. just like the wall of jericho fall down by the power of prayer, so just keep praying! and your problems will be destroyed by the power of our Lord. that's all what i want to say now. TAG!


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11:34 PM

Friday, May 2, 2008

today is just another normal school day, as usual, fall asleep many times during lesson. life is just normal and ordinary, still eat alone during recess, i love the feeling. haha! after a whole day, didn't talk to alot of people, people just seem to be don't want to talk to me? i don't know... 3hours of maths remedia make me feel super tired, but i learnt something! if not i might fail my a maths? eventhough ms tan said that we can leave if we want, and many people leave. but i was still there listening! proud of myself? yesterday, after my quiet time, while i am about to fall asleep, i just can't stop thinking about it. it make me so frustrated and annoyed, i just punch the wall with all my strength, and i can't feel the pain... ah~ God! please help me! i am glad that i am in B1, and everyone is just so loving. i love B1, they make me feel happy, eventhough i am in a bad mood. maybe church is the only place to make me feel happy? haha, i don't know. but do not worry! xinchi is already back! tomorrow is pledge day, combine service. and i decided to give up my o school, i don't have the time for that. maybe wait until i am free, then i start again. i just can't wait for tomorrow, discipleship class with ivan, study maths with lala and service! i am hungry for the presence of God! i really have alot of things to learn in this season, many many things. i must learn how to build a better relationship with people around me, especially team ctss. i also must build my inner man! spirit is important! that's all what i want to say now, bye bye! (please tag! thank you! :D)


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6:46 PM

Thursday, May 1, 2008

i just came back from AI conference, it is very powerful. i am on usher today, and it is really tiring today, but it's fun! learn alot of new stuff today. yesterday, after talking to jian ming, wei le and wei ling from 11PM to 2.30AM. felt much better, when i was about to sleep, i start to reflect on myself. these few days i really did alot of stupid things, what am i doing? and i get one conclusion, i just think too much... alot of things just flooded my mind this few days, and i start to get tired of my life, but i have God with me! so everything is going to be alright. i learnt how to keep all the sorrow to myself, and lift them to God. i cannot show my emotion to others, lift them to God and let Him solve it. nowadays really alot of problems, and i had found out the reason for it. it's the stupid satan who is trying to destroy my life. i must admit that he almost hit his target, but now i am strong in God. he can't do anything to my life, because i have God. sometimes, we might just feel stress and tired about our life. but it is normal, who live a problem free life? no one, but we must always remember this, what is the difference about us and other people in the world? we have God with us, and He is our saviour. He will always help us, so seek Him! God is just amazing, if u experience it, you will know. i don't know how others think about me, maybe they will feel weird, why xinchi's blog is always about God and church? you know why? because i simply love Him with all my heart and all my souls. you won't know how He change my life and how much He had done for me. He is my LORD, forever and ever. nowadays really don't know how to control my mind, it just seem to be out of my control. but thanks to all my leaders and friends, and of course, God! i had think through everything, and decided to be myself, just be myself. that's all. i don't need to think about other stuff, i had been thinking too much le... you won't know the biggest secret in my mind, and i don't wish to tell anyone. it just irritated me alot, and i just simply cannot control myself to stop thinking about it... but i will lift it to God, and let Him settle everything. ok, change topic. i have a new vision now! i want to be a SL in usher by next year, cool right? yeah~ =) i love USHER!! that's all i want to say today.. bye!

by the way, if you just happen to read my blog, please tag! i noticed that nobody is tagging!

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8:32 PM

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