this post will just be a short post which tell you how i feel these few days. basically everything is fine, and last sunday i was touched by God strongly. last sunday is Pastor Lia's birthday's celebration, it was fun and exciting. all the shows and programmes were super funny, i love it, will tell you the details next time. at the end of the celebration, Pastor Lia told us about then story of 'heart of worship' this song is one of my favourite worship song. yes, Pastor Lia's words goes into my heart, and i will never ever forget it. we worship God because we love Him, without the music, without the lights, without the equipments, we still love God. even when the music fades, all is stripped away, and i simply come to worship You, my Lord. the heart of worship is the most important thing when we are worshiping God, no matter how good the music is,how nice the lights is, how expensive the equipments are, without the heart of worship, we will not feel the presence of God. that day, when Pastor Lia want us to pray for her mother, Pastor Ma. when Pastor Lia began to sing a chinese song, tears just flow down my eyes, and i felt it so strongly, it was God. it has been such a long time for me to feel it so strongly after easter friday. i felt so strongly that my spirit is too weak. i have been always telling my leaders like, Ivan, JianMing and ZiAng that i want to rise up, i want to be a leader. i maybe have the skill, have the heart, but what about my spirit? a few months ago, i sms Ivan and asked him what should i do to rise up as a leader, and Ivan told me this. "hahhs. first u must have availability which u have. second, u must have great attitude. you need to keep asking JianMing to disciple u so u can grow. also have a grateful attitude and giving attitude! tithe!!! thirdly annoniting, got to keep growing in God. spend time in His presence. have a solid qt. learn to recognice God's voice by always spending time w Him. read your bible. lastly, when u have it all, u will grow in abilities. don't worry about it. when u are faithful to the small things God will trust u with bigger things. u are doing very well with the new ints... keep it up... listen to jm and do all he tells u."i ask myself, did i do all these which Ivan told me to do? did i read my bible very often? did i had a solid qt everyday? the answer is no... yes, i am growing, but so what? it's not enough, it will never enough! my spirit is weak, i need to build my inner man. i will never be a leader if i don't even have the spirit. i also told JianMing about how am i going to plan my life during exam period, and its a wonderful plan. i really want to thank God for putting so many great leaders in my life. thank you Ivan for always teaching me so many things in discipleship class, thank you JianMing for teaching me so many things through follow-up and always help me when i am in trouble, thank you ZiAng fo always care for me and have fun with me. thank you B1. these days are really simple and easy, just study and study non-stop. today, which is friday, i am super free after my english paper. so i begin to start to reflect on my life, feel irritated by myself on all the stupid things i did this few weeks. i am being such a extra person here and there, i love the time when i am being alone. it make me feel good, because i am who i am, and God love me for who i am. why am i thinking so much? why am i thinking so much about my relationship with other people? i simply love God, that is all i need to do. there are many things that i must keep it in my heart, and i will lift it all to God. i love God, that's all. today i am abit emo, over many things, not very good to share it here, but i am ok now. i think through everything, i am thinking too much, i should concentrate on God. i just want to end this post with my favourite verse in the bible. MATTHEW 6:33 Seek first then kingdom of God and all His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.
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06 JAN 1992
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HEART OF GOD CHURCH
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